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27 days ago
This Tuesday, Togo celebrated their annual labor day, a derivative of the French holiday "Première May," also known as "May day." It was a spectacular event talked up by everyone all over town (the ladies at the post, the fruit vendors, the man who owns the boutique by my house, and even the annoying moto taxi drivers), and everyone asked me almost the same question "Tu vas fêter bien?" (Translation: Are you going to party well?) The day started off with what I can only describe as the one of the few well organized large scale event I've ever seen in Togo (even though it started 2 hours late…); a parade through the town center all the way to the outskirts of the city to the Mayor's office. My trusty companion/side-kick/site-mate Rebekah and I made our way out early to our usual hang out spot, a café right by the main road that runs through town to await the much-anticipated parade. After a while of waiting, we started to doubt what everyone was telling us and scoffed at the idea of an actual organized parade. But then, in the distance I heard the unmistakable noise of brass instruments, being badly played I might add, and then saw the first group of Togoelse to walk by. We jumped up, threw a wad of cash at the waitress to cover the cost of our morning breakfast, and ran out to the main road to get a good view. In retrospect, we didn't really need to hurry, the parade was inching along at a glacial pace and we were the only real spectators. As is customary for our lives here in Togo, we were much more the focus of the parades' participants attention than they were for us. People were shouting and waving at us standing on the side of the road and taking pictures of us with their camera phones. I quickly coined the term "reverse parade" as it was most obviously an inverse of what an actual parade is. In many ways, I feel that everyday is a reverse parade, but that's a different qualm I have with living here – and not one I really care to discuss at length. Even still, it was quite an event as probably over a thousand people walked past carrying the banners of their respective organizations/companies. My favorite "float" was the water company who what cleverly created a closed loop water pump in the bed of the truck and had someone standing continuously pumping water into a cistern – it was pretty neat, I gotta say. Afterwards, we went back to my house, made some banana bread, and hung out. All in all, a pretty good "fête."   Things are going splendidly here in Togo and I must say that the past 3 months have been the most productive in terms of my work and integration. I attribute this to many things, but mainly a higher level of comfort I now have communicating in French. I've also been pushing a lot to get projects going and thanks to the relationships I've forged with my Togolese counterparts, I have had much success collaborating with some very capable people. In fact, I credit most of my success these past three months to them.   My first large project was the Men's Health and Wellness trainings that I organized throughout my city. The project was based on a philosophy called "Men as Partners" which focuses on educating men to see the inequalities between the genders and to empower them to make positive decisions to advance their well being and that of their communities. The program follows an "ecological model" which is really just a fancy way of saying that the activities encourages the participants to draw their own conclusions on different issues presented to them as problems in their society. Within the realm of gender equality/equity, sexual health/reproduction, violence, communication, and drug use, the 40 men that received the training were encouraged to re-examine the status quo and determine for themselves if their position in society as men could do anything to address the issues. In conjunction with the Red Cross, my two counterparts and I trained eight Red Cross volunteers in how to facilitate the MAP (Men as partners) sessions and over the course of two weeks we held four separate trainings, each within the communities lasting for 4 days each. I would say that I felt the project was most successful in that the participants seemed motivated to share the information with their communities, and to inform other men of their responsibilities in the Togolese patriarchal society to promote change. Participants at every training thanked me at the end for giving them a new way of looking at their lives and I was surprised by how strongly some men felt about the topics we discussed. One man at the end of the last training came up to me and told me that after the training, he felt that gender inequity in terms of access to education was the biggest obstacle to Togo's development. He said that because he loves his country he would send each of his 3 daughters to school and ensure that all of them finished high school. I was very taken aback by this statement mostly due to the fact that this same participant who indirectly supported the statement on the first day that "men are smarter than women." It was a fantastic first project and it gave me a lot of experience with working with HCNs (host country nationals), managing a budget (it was a USAID funded project), and working on developing capacities at the community level. Over the next three months, the men in each group (four total) will carry out activities within their community and in September I will be doing follow-up interviews to assess their progress and whether or not the MAP philosophy made any difference in their lives. In all honesty, I'm not sure if I'll see the tangible results of this project during my service, but when considering the steps of behavior change, and getting people to implement things they learn, I feel that almost all 40 men made remarkable strides.   Other fun work activities that I've been doing include working with 12 Togolese NGO representatives teaching them basic Microsoft Word during an 3 day NGO conference organized by fellow volunteers; sharing enriched porridge practices with the participants at a well-being fair organized by a fellow volunteer; continuing my work with a youth club and mothers club at an NGO that supports people living with/affected by HIV; and starting a moringa garden at the Red Cross office in my town. (Moringa is a tree known as the "miracle tree" all over Africa for having amazing properties such as a high protein/vitamin content in the leaves in addition to nearly 8 other uses. A big part of the Peace Corps does in Africa is teaching people how to grow and use this awesome plant.) Approaching the year mark in my service (I know, when did that happen?!) has been good for many reasons, but mainly because I feel that I have developed some solid relationships with Togoelse and Americans alike, pushed myself a little to do things I'm not 100% comfortable with, and because I've learned how to "live" here and make myself happy. The other day I made an amazing chicken pot pie and brownies using all local ingredients, and it was DELICIOUS. I am always missing my friends and family back home and sometimes I get down on myself for not communicating as much with them as I probably should, but I'm trying. I know these blogs don't come as regularly as they should, and I'm working on it.   I also wanted to give a quick shout-out to any incoming PCVs who may or may not be reading this blog since it's linked to the Peace Corps blog website (personally I couldn't get enough of volunteers' blogs before I came to country. I'm still awkwardly dropping facts that I read on peoples' blogs to them…it's a bit of awkward at times, ha ha!) This experience is an absolute roller coaster, so just be prepared for it to be awesome and ridiculously ridiculous (e.g. reverse parade, green oranges, etc.) all at the same time. Please don't worry about what to pack, just bring what will make you happy. With everything else, you can manage here. My prized possessions from home: non-stick saucepan and hair products. Eat a turkey sandwich for me before you come, please!   Love, Ryan 
73 days ago
Among volunteers in the Peace Corps, it is a generally agreed upon

fact that no day is quite the same. Ask anyone and they will tell you

that every day brings different joys, frustrations, and

accomplishments. We all have different coping techniques since not

knowing a lot of what your day will bring can be quite stressful at

times (perhaps in the same way I'm sure Firefighters must feel about

their jobs…) For me, it's the stalwart sense of optimism that gets me

through, though I too have those days of despair and anxiety

association with the high stress of living in West Africa. That being

said, everyone's experience in the Peace Corps is immensely different.

Heck, my sitemate who lives 5K from me in the same city is having a

dramatically different Peace Corps experience. It all comes down to

who we are as people and what we want to get out of this experience.I thought that it might be interesting for friends and family back

home to know what an average day is like for me living here in Togo,

so that is what this blog post is dedicated too.Average day # 16h00: Wake up to the sound of the call to prayer coming from the

mosque in my back yard intermixed with the crows of roosters and

goats.6h15: Hit the snooze button on my cell phone alarm for the third time

and rollover for 10 more minutes of sleep (some things never change

and I've become miraculously good at staying asleep amidst incredible

amounts of noise)6h30: Jump out of bed, shower, and get dressed for the day. Take extra

time to apply sun screen to every exposed surface of my body including

the tops of my feet. (My chaco tan line is probably a permanent

fixture of my skin at this point.)6h45: Whip up a quick breakfast of a boiled egg, oatmeal, bananas, and

coffee while reading a magazine or watching an episode of Friends on

the computer.7h00: Race out the door on my bike to a meeting at a middle school 7

kilometers from my house. I'm supposed to be collecting nomination

forms for a leadership camp that the Peace Corps is doing in July for

middle school students. This is the 3rd time this week I've made the

trek out to the school, but hopefully the last because collecting

these forms is the last step in nominating kids for camp.7h15: Arrive on time sweaty and thirsty at the school. End up waiting

for 45 minutes for the kids, teachers, and director to arrive even

though school is supposed to start at 7h30. Luckily I brought a book.8h30: After collecting nominations and thanking all the students and

director, I ride my bike back into town for a meeting with my

homologue at the Red Cross. We're planning a Men's Health and Gender

Equity conference and need to discuss the selection of trainers and

plan out our schedule. We take a 15 minute prayer break in the middle

of our meeting, I play snake on my phone to pass the time.9h30: Ride my bike to the workstation to print and e-mail documents

for a NGO workshop that I'm participating in. Will be teaching

participants about basic computer literacy. After I'm done at the

workstation, I break for a bag of cold water and maybe a couple of

slices of pineapple on the side of the road under a tree.10h30: After finishing up at the workstation, I ride my bike back into

town to check on the post, send a letter, go to the bank, and pick up

some essentials from the market (vegetables, rice, eggs, toilet paper,

sugar, flour, etc.)11h00: Accomplishing simple tasks at the post always takes longer than

expected – almost 30 minutes to buy a stamp and check the P.O. box. I

also run into a friend and we end up talking for a bit about his

program and what he's been up to lately.11h45: Meet up with one of my sitemates for lunch at a café and talk

about a variety of topics ranging from our health, food we miss, work,

future travel plans, other volunteers, food we miss, and plans for the

rest of the week.13h00: Go home to work on a presentation that will happen with a

fellow PCV in her village on family planning. Need to outline and plan

the order of the conversation and what posters we need to make in

advance.14h30: At the hottest part of the day, it's hard to do anything other

than sit in front of a fan and read or watch TV. I end up taking a nap

after falling asleep reading Harry Potter in French.15h30: Wake up to a text message from a volunteer passing through my

town who needs a place to stay for the night. I tell them they can

stay at my house since hotels can be expensive on our budgets.16h00: Someone knocks on my door, it's my landlord and mason he hired

to come tile the bathroom in my house. He hasn't actually bought any

of the materials, but needs to measure the bathroom for a third time.

I'm not sure why but let them in and supervise as they do all of this.16H30: After shooing my landlord out, I ride my bike up to another

NGOs office to talk to them about an idea I have for a market women's'

health group. The idea seems to go over well so after I flesh out more

of what the idea means to me, I'll go back and discuss it more with

them. Hopefully it's a project that catches on, but as with about 80%

of my ideas, it kinda fizzles out. But that's OKAY!17h00: Volunteer arrives after a long/uncomfortable taxi ride and we

hang out for a bit before deciding to go to dinner at a local street

food stand.19h00: After coming home, start working on editing a radio show that

another site mate has wrote and will hopefully perform together in the

next week.20h30: Shower and get ready for bed.21h00: Fall asleep either reading or watching an episode of some

random TV show. My favorite shows to watch to fall asleep are the

Planet Earth series, especially the ones about the ocean.Average day # 2 (Not necessarily the next day, but just an example of

another "average day.")7h00: Wake up under similar circumstances, shower, eat breakfast.7h30: Watch a ridiculous amount of the TV show Mad Men, only breaking

to make a sandwich for lunch.16h00: Decide that I should probably leave the house at least once, so

I walk down the street say hi to some friends.17h00: After only an hour, I come back home and make dinner. While

dinner is finishing cooking, I do an exercise video (usually yoga or

cardio)18h00: Eat dinner, shower, and continue watching TV.20h00: By now I've finished almost an entire season. Slightly

embarrassed yet satisfied, I get ready for bed.20h30: Phone call from America! Yay! Talk on the phone with a friend

for a bit before getting into bed.So there you have it. Two very different, but very real days for me

here in Peace Corps Togo. I wouldn't say that I prefer having one type

of day to another, but I will say that without the days like the

second day, the days like the first wouldn't be possible. I guess what

I'm trying to say is that work can be incredibly exhausting,

frustrating, and in general just take a lot more effort than in the

United States. However, that is all part of this experience and it is

teaching me to appreciate the things that I do have that much more. I

wouldn't say that I'm happy ALL the time here, but I am happy most of

the time. Feeling yourself change as a person is a very surreal

feeling, but it's also refreshing to know that this experience is

giving you as much back as you are putting in. I'm learning to rely on

myself, work with others who see the world radically different than

me, and in general learning to accept my shortcomings and talents. I

miss my friends and family every day, but I have never been more

content with a decision as to join the Peace Corps.
110 days ago
I'm not sure when the exact moment was that I realized this, but after almost 6 months during which I felt I had little to do, I suddenly have a schedule booked until November. I mean, I know how it happened, obviously, but it's nice to feel like I'm finally getting into some meaningful programs/activities. Don't get me wrong, I did quite a bit during my first 4 months at post. Cultural integration is hard and especially when you're trying to speak in two new languages. However, I finally feel comfortable here in Togo and I rarely, if ever, have the "holy crap I'm in Africa" moments. (Well sometimes, but it's not a daily thing like it used to be.) Most of all, I have some fantastic work partners that I feel truly lucky to have met. I have met numerous volunteers who have described a lack of truly motivated and capable work partners at their sites and though it took a lot of effort to cultivate these relationships myself, I feel ready to work with my counterparts on a multitude of projects. Other things I'm thankful for/felt like I've accomplished are the relationships I've built with other volunteers. There are some truly awesome people that have chosen to serve in Togo and I love every opportunity I have to get to know them better. Overall, things are going well in Togo and while it hasn't been easy, it has been entirely worth it. Since my last update, I've continued developing different project ideas with my counterparts, supervisors, and other volunteers. My first large-scale project that I'm really excited about is a gender equity workshop called "Men as Partners" or "Hommes Commes Partenaires" in French. It's a program targeted towards men in societies where they are the dominant/influential group in the decision making process of the family. It also has a large component focused on helping men arrive at their own conclusions on why/how gender inequalities exist. I will be conducting it with approximately 40 men from different neighborhoods around my city as well as 8 Togolese counterparts that will be training on how to run the workshops effectively. Essentially helping people build their own capacities by providing the guidance and information in the hopes that they utilize to a greater extent than if they were simply told what it was. Another exciting venture is a bi-monthly radio show that my two other site mates and I compose and perform at a local station about different topics such as health and gender equality. We've only done one so far on malaria, which went way better than I ever expected! Having never been on the radio before coming to Togo, I was kind of nervous about the whole "live broadcast" aspect of it all. Though the best part was when I was able to play any music I wanted during the intermissions of our hour long show, so of course I chose to play Lady Gaga and other celebrated female artists. I mean, it ties back to gender equality and all, right? Right?! Anyway, another large project that I'm involved with is Camp Espoir, which is an AIDS/HIV American-style sleep away camp for Togolese youth that will take place in August. It's an exciting opportunity to be playing such a large role as the programming coordinator, but I'm excited to adapt the camp to this year's new theme: The Olympics! Kids from all over the country get to come to a really sweet training center in the central region for a week of classic camp activities. For many of them, it's their first opportunity to meet other positive kids and hopefully to forget about their status for a little bit and just be like every other kid. I'm really hopeful that I'll have so great experiences to share after camp is over. However, before that comes, there is quite a bit of work to do in terms of planning and coordinating. It's all so exciting though! Yay summer camp! In other news on the social scene, I just hosted the country's Valentine's Day party in my city for 30 or so volunteers. The romantic evening was set against the backdrop of a lovely bar located at a gas station in the middle of town (if you're scratching your head at that one trust me, it's as counter-intuitive as it seems…) and dinner was provided by none other than the "Street Food Queen." (We affectionately refer to this woman who always has the best street food as "the queen" because she is always so well dressed and is graceful under pressure. I've seen her prepare like 3 plates at once and the food is always delicious. AND I've never gotten sick from eating there, PLUS!) The night included plenty of merriment, dancing, and baked goods, courtesy of me and my pal Kate L. who came the day before to help out/hang out. Having volunteers over is always fun and as many of my friends could probably already guess, there was a mandatory Disney classic sing-a-long as well as a Bad Romance choreography session. All in all, the party went extremely well and I'm already thinking of what my next "event" will be. In May, after a lot of my projects and other work commitments will be completed, I am going on a vacation with my mom and brother to Germany to visit my aunt and uncle and my cousins! I'm super pumped about it because as much as I love Togo, I really think I need a vacation. I also really miss my family and so it will be a nice two week break before my one-year mark rolls around (I know, to think it's almost been a year…it's crazy for me as well.) I've been to Germany a few times before, but I think aside from everything else like seeing my family and visiting in a country with reliable transportation, the thing I'm most excited for is ice cream. I know that's kind of silly, but hey, we all have our vices. Specifically mint chocolate chip ice-cream; Hägen-Daz is a German company, right? Okay, now I'm just rambling/drooling… Even though it's been 8 months since I left the states I still think about my friends and family almost every day and even though I don't get the opportunity to communicate with them as much as I might like (such as my self-admitted disinterest to writing blogs) I still think about them often and want to know what is going on in their lives as well. Sometimes, it's extremely hard to relate to the lives of the Togolese (try as I might) in terms of the daily social activities, long term goals and basic cultural attributes, so it's nice to escape, if only even momentarily, into the life of someone that I know and can relate too. I guess what I'm saying is that I would much rather receive a letter describing a little bit about your life than a package with snacks (as much as I love snacks, my lack of self-control doesn't bode well for my waist-line.) Also, I find it much easier to respond to question than I do to writing open-ended about my Peace Corps experience. So get to writing folks! (e-mails are great, and you'll probably get a quicker response too!) As always, love love.
149 days ago
Greetings all! I've received quite a few questions on how one

can/should send packages to me in Togo. In all honestly, I've draggedmy feet a bit because I don't feel like I really "need" anything fromthe states, and I would also people rather donate to the numerousPeace Corps projects happening all over the world that could usefunding (including my own projects, eventually…) See link:That being said, here is a list** of some things I feel would be

"nice" to have (in no particular order):Magazines (Newsweek, Time, Vanity Fair, People, Popular Science,Vogue France, GQ, Alcalde, etc.)Cotton t-shirts (size medium, V or crew neck) I like Gap brand!Pants (Jeans, khakis, linen, etc.) 32/32, standard or slim fitTrail Mix/Ajil/Plain AlmondsChicken/Tuna/Beef/Bacon Packets (in water, not oil)Cat toys, medicine, flea collarsCrystal Light Packets (any flavor)New Media (Movies [DVDs/Flashdrives], Music, Books)Printed PicturesGreeting Cards/LettersCondiments (small packets or bottles. i.g, soy sauce, salsa, BBQ sauce, honey, relish, etc.)Cologne samples (YSL "L'Homme" preferred.)News Paper ClippingsDried MeatsTea Mixes (Sadaf, Green, Pomegranate, etc.)Dried FruitsParmesan Cheese PowderAnything "quickdry" (underwear, towels, shirts, socks, etc.)Peanut M&MsHair Products (shampoo/conditioner, serum, wax, etc.)Cetaphil Soap Bars (Antibacterial version)Artisan Italian Soup MixesGranola BarsElectric hair trimmer (battery powered would be best!)Cake Mixes ("Anything that just requires Milk, Eggs, or Oil added.")** This list of items are merely suggestions, you can send anythingyou want; The weirder the better! I recently received a self-therapychecklist and it's actually pretty neat! Now, let's discuss ways to send things to Togo! There are few ways to

do it, from what I've seen other volunteers receive. Internationalflat rate shipping via USPS is the most common way people receivemail. UPS and DHL are costly and inefficient. USPS offers differentflat rate envelopes and boxes, the latter being much more expensive.Also, any "box" that comes to our P.O. boxes at the post office costus about $2 to retrieve. It's not much, but it's easily avoidable bysending the smaller "medium size" flat rate envelopes. These envelopescan be filled with most things, and they only cost in-between $13 -$18 USD to mail to Togo. The medium flat rate envelopes can hold2-4lbs. The boxes come in various sizes as well, but can cost almostthree times as much. For example, my mother has sent me a few mediumsized flat rate boxes, each at around $45 USD each, and they eachweighed around 16-20lbs. In all honesty, I think after the standardshipping boxes you can mail almost any size package to this country,it just costs A LOT! Letters and other documents can be sent quite cheaply as well at

around $2-8 USD. If all you are sending is magazines/letters, you canask the postal worker to mail it as "media mail," which often timesreduces the rate of postage. This only works for packages containingONLY media. Again, my address is:



Ryan Omide Aghabozorg PCV

Corps de la PaixB.P. 224, SokodéTOGO (West Africa) The most important thing is that you write "Corps de la Paix" under my

name and also clearly write TOGO on the package. On more than oneoccasion packages have gone to TONGA in Australia only to make it backto Togo months after the person originally sent it. Also, I shouldmention that I don't really know much about buying insurance for thepackage. I've heard that it costs extra money when the package passesthrough customs in Lomé, but I'm not entirely sure. When in doubt, donot insure the package. I know that is disheartening and slightlycounterintuitive, but I've only heard of a few cases of packages beinglost or stolen in transit. It is common, however, for packages to beopened upon arrival for inspection. More times than not, packages itmake it – eventually. Here are some more general tips for mailing things to Togo:

•All liquids need to be made COMPLETELY spill proof. If something in

the packages leaks, the chances that I will never get it riseastronomically.•Writing phrases like "God Bless", "Allah Akbar", "Dieu Vous Blessez,"etc. increases the chances of a packages safe delivery. I've alsoheard that using red ink makes things look more "official" and lesslikely to be intercepted/opened. Religious symbols are also a nicetouch.•Sending flash drives or anything super valuable is often difficultbecause packages do get opened and people definitely take things thatlook valuable. Your best bet is to hide it in something inconspicuous.For example, one of my friend's mother used to send her $100 bills intampon boxes. She would carefully open the tampon, remove the filler,replace it with the cash, glue the package closed and place it back inthe original box. I'm not saying that is the best way to do things,but being creative helps. When in doubt, think like a secret agent. Haha! :P
149 days ago
Greetings everyone from Badou, Togo! I know it has been almost two

months since I posted a blog post, but as part of my new years

resolution, I am writing more. My goal is just to write, not

necessarily blogs or letters, just writing (that being said, hopefully

you can expect more blogs and letters from me about my life.) Today is

the last day of my holiday "mini-vacation" and tomorrow I will be

going back to my post in Sokodé. I spent the Christmas holiday in

Lomé, the capital of Togo with my friends Becky and Martin hanging out

and enjoying the small luxuries the capital city had to offer. Lomé is

a difficult place to be in for many reasons (it's polluted, expensive,

and slightly dangerous) but it is the only place in Togo where you can

experience small tastes of home.On Christmas day my boss invited all the volunteers to his house for a

Hawaiian-themed Christmas party with a bunch of other ex-pats and

embassy workers. Becky and I were the only two volunteers that showed

up, but I still had a blast. I drank alcohol out of a pineapple for

the first time in my life (it was so delicious!), ate a roasted pig,

and gorged myself on ice cream and brownies. All-in-all, it was a good

Christmas (did I mention it was a pool party? Yes, yes it was.)For the next two days Becky, Martin, and I spent our days hanging out

at the beach and eating dinner at good restaurants. The only "good"

beach in Togo is a private beach called Coco Beach. It is kind of hard

to get too since you have to drive through the over-crowded port of

Lomé, but once you're there it's like another world. We swam in a

clean pool and frolicked on the semi-clean beach – it was a nice break

from the torrid humidity of Lomé. In the evenings, we sampled the best

cuisine Lomé has to offer, which isn't much per say, but there is some

good Lebanese food to be found, as well as decent pizza. Another perk

of being in Lomé is using the internet! Our Peace Corps office has a

volunteer lounge with a bunch of books and wifi! I mean, we are

talking about dial-up/slow DSL speeds, but none-the-less I was able to

skype with my mom and brother and some other friends. It was so great

to see them after 7 months!The next day, I went with my friend Kate to visit our friend Veronica

in her village of Kovié. I really like visiting my friends in small

villages because it gives me the chance to experience that side of

this Peace Corps experience. Hanging out in village has it perks, but

my favorite part is that people are actually somewhat interested in

who you are and where you come from. At my post, in Sokodé, I'm always

just "another yovo (foreigner)" which is partly due to the fact that

there are a lot of other white people running around the city. Well,

not a lot, but enough. And also, living in a city means that people

don't feel the same sense of large community as you do in village.

Anyways, it was just fun to hang out and walk around the village

scaring little kids and practicing local languages. The best part is

though when walking around a village and realizing that this is your

job, just to be there. I have a pretty awesome job. Oh, Veronica, Kate

and myself also played a really cool game called "Settelers of Katan!"

I am slightly obsessed with it now. I also hear there is a travel

sized edition? *hint hint*After two days in Kovié, Veronica and I headed up to Badou to visit

our friend Vanessa. Badou is a small city nestled in the mountains of

the plateau region of Togo. They export a lot of the countries coffee

and cocoa from this region and it's just a beautiful place to be. On

the last day of the year, we hiked up to seek the Akola falls, which

was just breath taking. I realized that it had been quite some time

since I simply marveled at something…and boy, did I marvel. The

45-minute hike itself to the falls was quite nice because it was

through a tropical jungle littered with birds and butterflies. I was

really hoping to see a monkey, but our guide said that they had been

poached away from the area almost 20 years ago. We ended up spending

the entire afternoon hanging out in the falls, taking pictures, eating

lunch, and chatting with our guide. It was one of the best days I've

had in Togo thus far.The rest of our time in Badou was spent fêting, and by fêting, I MEAN

fêting (side note: fêter means to party in French.) In order to greet

the new year properly, we made a fabulous dinner of bean burgers and

pineapple upside down cake, cracked open a nice box of wine, and

listened to some good music. This was my first New Years away from

home and I would definitely consider it a success. The best part is

though, that for the Togolese, the party continues for at least 3

days. We were invited for so many lunches and dinners and

"just-because" meals I've already lost count. All I can say with

absolute certainty is that I am going to need a dietary vacation after

3 days full of starch and carbs. *blegh* Togolese food is growing on

me though, fufu especially. While it has a funny name, fufu is a

typical West African style dish of pounded ingame, manioc, taro, or

potato with a spicy tomato based sauce. There are many variations of

the sauce with some being based on okra, sesame, or just simply palm

oil, and the protein involved can vary as well. I think my favorite

dish in this country is ingame (kinda like a sweet potato) fufu with

spicy peanut sauce and wagash. Wagash is probably also one of my

favorite things here. It is a fermented cheese made from cow's milk

that vaguely resembles mozzarella. My friend Lizzy learned how to make

it from her Fulani friends (the Fulani are a nomadic tribe that live

throughout West Africa. They are colorful and obviously have a rich

cultural makeup, but they are often stigmatized in Togolese society

for "harboring" diseases and not learning the official language.)

Anyway, wagash is delicious, even though it has a funny name.Tomorrow I will be heading back to Sokodé, after being gone for a week

and half. I miss my cat and my house and my volunteer friends in my

cluster, which in my opinion is a good sign. I consider Sokodé to be

home now and while it took me quite some time to feel comfortable

there, I finally do. I feel confident that this will be a defining

year for me both personally and in terms of my career. I am going back

to some solid partnerships (well, at least I hope they are solid) that

I've developed over the past 5 months with various NGOs in Togo. ATBEF

(L'Association Togolaise pour le Bien-être Familiale aka Planned

Parenthood) is going to be my primary work partner with whom I will

continue doing presentations and workshops on various health topics. I

also hope to be trained on how to do HIV/AIDS counseling for youth who

come in to do testing. Espoir Vie Togo (EVT) is another NGO who I will

hopefully work with to plan my regions Camp Espoir, of which I am the

national programming intern. Camp Espoir is an American sleep-away

camp for Togolese children infected and affected by HIV/AIDS and EVT

is my primary counterpart for work with this population. Other

projects I am starting up include a health club with some middle

school students at the school my old site mate Katy Kientz built as

well as a weekly life skills class for a group of vocational students

(apprentices) who work for tailors and hairdressers. In January we

also have a Peace Corps training called "Project Development and

Management" which means that all the volunteers from my training class

will get another chance to get together, hang out, swap stories, and

maybe learn a thing or two in the process. This training will also be

held with a Togolese counterpart of our choice. I am bringing my

official homologue from the Red Cross because I think both of us are

still a little unsure of what it means to work together. The Red Cross

Togo is a massive organization with solid funding and staffing, so I

am still trying to figure out what the best way is to work with them.

All in all January promises to be a great month! I am excited to see

what this year will bring!I've also resolved to read more this year since the massive amount of

down time in the Peace Corps lends itself well towards becoming a

well-read individual, something which I have yet to fully capitalize

on. I am currently finishing up the Girl With The Dragon Tattoo series

and I am starting Reading Lolita in Tehran, (something I have always

wanted to read) The Brief and Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao, and

Mountains Beyond Mountains. I'm not sure if these are pre-requisite

books to becoming a "well-read" individual, but it's a start.  I'm

always open to suggestions!I hope everyone has enjoyed their holiday season and with a New Year

upon us I am continually reminded of the importance of not only our

daily choices but also our attitude towards the outcomes based on our

choices. I am living in Africa and enjoying (almost) every second of

it, and while everything happens for a reason, I am so happy with my

decision to come here. (That is my story and I am sticking to it, ha

ha! Please feel free to remind me when I complain about how hot it is

here, or the lack of infrastructure, etc.) I want to wish everyone

back home a Happy New Years and I love you all very much!Love love.
195 days ago
For the past three days, I have been working on a national polio vaccination campaign for children under the age of 5. This annual campaign is conducted yearly by the Togo Ministry of Health and the World Health Organization, the latter being one of my primary work partners here in Togo. Polio has been all but eradicated in most of the world with the exception of a few "endemic" regions, Sub-Saharan West Africa being one of the largest of these regions. My job with the campaign is critical in that I not only stand around and look important, I ALSO help administer the vaccine by marking each child's thumb with an indelible ink that doesn't come off (trust me, I've had a peace sign on my left forearm for the past 72 hours.) All jokes aside, the work we've done is rather important data collection that will measure the efficacy of the campaign and what areas can be improved. The World Health Organization, also known as the WHO, trained around 100 Togolese university students and a handful of Peace Corps volunteers to go out into all the small villages across the country to gather information about the vaccination campaign. The two students that I get to work with are really nice and fun to hang out with. After we got to know each other better it was really fun to just hang out and converse with a fellow educated individual.   During the campaign, I made a list of interesting occurrences and observations that I will share with all of you in a bulleted format for your (and my) convenience:   I live in a fairly large "prefecture," I guess you can kind of think of it as a county in the states, but a large portion of our time is spent traveling through the country from village to village. I had already seen a lot of the land surrounding my city but beyond that I really knew little about what was beyond the city limits. Turns out that there is part of what used to be the "Fazao National Park" located directly northwest of the prefecture According to Peace Corps legend, the Fazao park used to be where all the tourists went on safari during Togo's heyday in the 1980s, but since the early 2000s it has been closed off, and completely deserted. I was actually looking through a PC scrapbook the other day and saw pictures of volunteers swimming at the Fazao Hotel's pool in the 90s. In contrast to the extreme poverty that I witness on a daily basis, it was surprising to see that such a modern amenity even existed. (PS, another cool fact, apparently the park's resort is now deserted an haunted…anybody up for an adventure?!) For many of the people in the village far from the national road and deep in the bush, my arrival in the village marked the first time any of them had ever seen a foreigner. I'm used to being the focus of attention for many people when I walk around town, but this was an entirely different experience. I'm not sure what people tell their children, but from the way that some of them reacted to me I can only imagine that parents tell their children that white people are ghosts or even Africans with no soul (the latter of which was confirmed by a Togolese friend of mine.) Part of the vaccination process requires that we mark each child's finger with ink so that they're not vaccinated more than once – this proved to be difficult when the mere sight of me caused some of the younger children to freak out. People's reactions to white people vary greatly however, most people just yell out yovo or anasara, which means "white person." But others actually greet me in local language. Speaking of local language, you should know that there are about 40 different local languages and dialects. French is the "official" language, but most people who never received formal education (which is a large majority of the population) only speak their local language. During the campaign, our primary job was to visit a random sampling of households in every village/city in the prefecture (county) and discuss various aspects of the vaccination campaign that was being conducted concurrently. Both the university students I was working with spoke a few of Togos' local languages, so whenever I could conduct the survey I would, but most of the time I was accompanied with one of them who could actually communicate. I did however, get a lot of practice with my local language skills. The spoken language in my region is called Kotokoli, which is also the name of the predominate ethnic group in my region. I had a few language lessons during training, but the majority of my Kotokoli was learned "on the job." During my first 3 months at post, part of my daily routine was walking all up and down my street greeting everyone I could in the local language. It's actually a very complex give and take that can last for up to 2-3 minutes, and it's incredible to see the full thing because at first glance it is just a series of meaningless grunts, but in reality each sound is different and can mean a different affirmation. Having the chance to see the entire prefecture for the first time was one of my favorite thing about the campaign. Sokodé is located at the base of a large mountain range and so for the first time in my life I am surrounded by something other than sprawling plains. Sometimes I just like to sit on my porch and stare at the mountains. Visiting other volunteers' villages during the campaign was also cool because I got to see how volunteers in really small villages live. Right now it's the dry season, which means that the air is super arid and dusty, but I actually prefer it because it gets cool at night. One of the most interesting things that happened was on the afternoon of the second day, my partner and I were out in a very remote village where there was no street food to be found. We basically ended up sitting at a random person's house after the survey and they made lunch for us. When I asked my partner if he knew who the family was, he said "No, but here in Africa we believe that if there is enough food for one, there is enough food for two." The sentiment of fraternity and community here in Togo is special many ways, and I am continually amazed by how people with so little are willing to give so much. In case you were curious as to what we ate for lunch, it was boiled rice formed into sticky balls called pâte that we ate with a palm oil sauce with a meat that I'm pretty sure was goat tongue. To be perfectly honest, it was my first experience eating tongue and it didn't taste half bad. At least…I hope it was tongue. :/ You can never really be to sure in this country what animal contributed to your meal.   These last few days I have been spending time in Lomé, the capital of Togo. It is the only major country capital in the world that is located adjacent to the border of another country, Ghana. I think this has to do with the way in which the west African countries were split up after their independence was granted from European colonials. Anyways, being in Lomé means lots of yummy food, ice cream, spending time on private beaches, and hanging out with other volunteers in the comfort of air conditioning. There is also wifi internet in the PC office, which makes downloading large files and uploading pictures much less stressful. Today I am going to be playing in a soccer match for International Volunteers Day at the University in Lomé. There are a few other European volunteer organizations as well as international development organizations that partner with various West African NGOs. Yesterday was the swearing in ceremony of the 2011-2013 Girls Education and Environmental Action volunteer groups. Two groups swear in every year, one in August (my group) and one in November. It was a surreal experience to be sitting in the audience watching a group experience something that I only experience a few months ago – yet it felt like just yesterday I was standing up in front of government dignitaries and host families giving a speech in a language that I just learned during the previous two weeks. This experience, while hard, is one of the most satisfying experiences of my life in ways that I did and did not expect. I would agree to do it again in a heartbeat.   Love love.   P.S. – I should probably explain the reason this post is titled "Green Oranges." Oranges in Togo are one of the biggest sources of produce and they are ridiculously cheap (5 for 25 cents USD). The most interesting thing about them though is that they are not orange as we would think, they are a deep green. I remember being a bit off put by that in the beginning of my service, but now I eat a few a day and they are easily one of the most delicious things in this country. During the campaign, I had oranges for lunch twice.
250 days ago
It's rainy season right now in Togo, which means that almost every

day, like clockwork, the ominous gray clouds come rolling in from the

south to release copious amounts of precipitation. On most days, I

hang out with my cat and nap at home, staring at the mountains from my

back porch. Most of my time is spent reading or watching episodes of

Glee or hanging out with volunteers as they pass through my town, but

on the days that it rains, everything slows down to a crawl. This

change of pace can even be sensed among the hurried grande marché,

which is usually bustling with activity in the towns' center. A few

days ago, as the rain was beginning to subside in the late afternoon,

I decided to take a walk. The sun was beginning to set so the sky was

a rich golden hue that can only be described as warm honey, and

everything smelled clean (which is a rarity for this country, trust

me.) As I started walking down my road, I glanced over my shoulder and

saw one of the most magnificent sights I've witnessed since coming to

this country – a full double rainbow. I physically laughed out loud at

the sight, and ran back inside my house to get my camera. It's on days

like these, as cliché as it sounds, that I really felt connected to

this place. I have only seen a double rainbow once before, and it was

in a park in Plano by the house I grew up in. I still remember trying

to get my mom to come with me to try and find the pot of gold at the

end of it (give me a break, I was a young and impressionable 7 year

old.) A lot of things about this experience in Togo have been

difficult and trying, but it's nice to feel that there is still, and

always will be, beauty everywhere you look.According to many volunteers, the month of September is one of the

slowest months at post. It's right before school starts and being

during the rainy seasons means that many people are out working the

fields, planting and harvesting crops for the coming months of

Harmatan, the "dry" season. Aside from my usual daily activities of

reading, studying, watching movies, and cooking, I have been slowly

building a contact list of possible work partners in my city. Being in

a large, centrally located city, the majority of my work will be

operational and technical related tasks with NGOs, but I am also

hoping to spend time working in a few of the local hospitals. My Peace

Corps assignment is Community Health, so I also plan on riding my bike

to some of the smaller surrounding villages to do presentations on

different health topics and to also help with baby weighing.

Sometimes, just being here feels like work, but I'm learning more and

more everyday and while I still feel like a stranger every time I walk

outside, I feel like I'm slowly beginning to integrate into my

immediate community. As they say, slow and steady wins the race. That

has become my new mantra.Still in good health and spirits, but I miss everyone at home very

much. Thank you for your continued love and support! I'm hoping to try

and upload some pictures that I've taken before the end of the month.Love love.
282 days ago
I've been told that we're approaching the "three month" mark of life in Togo, and I must say, sometimes it feels like a lot more, but most of the time, it feels like a lot less time has gone by. Getting through training and moving to post was stressful and fun and exciting and so many other random emotions that you weren't even sure you had the capability to express in a 24 hour period. All in all, one of the most rewarding things has simply been learning how to accept life's little success. For example, I now keep daily track of my health including mental/emotional status, vital signs, and number of bowel movements. That's right, having 1-2 healthy (key word being healthy) bowel movements a day is considered an accomplishment, at least it is in my opinion.

A large part of my time these first few weeks at post has been spent wandering around my city trying to figure out where everything is. Along with this come the trials and tribulations of learning about any new city. Most people are very nice and the ritual of greeting someone in local language can sometimes be a give and take that lasts a good minute.  So far, I've found two ladies in the market from which I buy fruits and vegetables. I've found a nice fish lady (for the cat, I haven't quite yet developed the stomach for smoked fish), and today I even had coffee ice cream. Other volunteers have mentioned a bakery of sorts and the "jean guy" carries the most random assortment of jeans this side of the Atlantic, but he offers many different styles of designer American jeans. I also ride my bike often around the city and to neighboring villages and biking has probably become one of my favorite past times. I live in the central region of the country so it's very green and only moderately hilly. I'm definitely going to invest in a bike when I get back to the states.

Though I haven't started working much yet, I spend quite a bit of time travelling around with my homologue and meeting with various "important" individuals. My homologue works for the Red Cross so he's been able to introduce me to a bunch of Togolese people that I can potentially do work with in the future. Last week I met an official who works for a "Prevention of Child Trafficking" NGO in my city and I am very much looking forward to doing projects with him. I'm taking advantage of this period in my life to read as many books as I can get my hands on. I just finished The Hunger Games series and I've just finished the first book in The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo series. So far I really like it, and I'm open to suggestions for new books!!

I miss all of you very much and just know that I think about my friends and family at home all the time. I know I have their love and support and I think that above all, that is the most important thing to me.

Love love.
295 days ago
Greetings everyone!! Sorry for the lack of posts, the internet can be hard to come by at times.  In case you're busy at the moment (or perhaps you experience massive digestive issues the minute you sit in front of a computer like me) I'll give you a few quick updates followed by a longer version if you care to read along.

Tomorrow marks my first full week at post. I am in a large city in the central region of Togo called Sokode. It's the second largest city in the country and it is predominately Muslim. So far I really like it a lot, the people are really nice and I can see many possible avenues for me to do work. I have what may be the largest house of any volunteer in the country, but it's not without its drawbacks. The lack of a neighborhood Ikea and Home Depot makes home repair and furnishing quite difficult. I ordered a few pieces of furniture already, but they won't be ready for a few more weeks. Until then, the cat and I (Oh, did I mention I adopted a cat? Yes, her name is Eunice and I won her in a dance contest – naturally. Okay, that's a bit of a stretch, it wasn't as much of a dance contest as it was a silent auction, but there was dancing happening during it, thus, dance contest.)  are sitting on the ground and sleeping on a mattress. It's not all that bad, I'm one of the lucky volunteers with electricity and running water. I also have a really awesome bike which I LOVE riding around. Seriously, biking is so much more fun than walking or driving; I don't know why I didn't do it more in the states. Anyway, I digress. This week I've been hanging out with the other two volunteers that are posted in Sokode with me. Katy is a Girl's Education volunteer and she's finishing up her two years at post but she is an AMAZING person who just happens to also be a UT alum (I'm not saying the two are mutually exclusive, but I mean come on, most people who go to UT are awesome – fact of life.) and we've been working on her World Map project at the school she built in Sokode. Oh yeah, the girl built a school, no big deal. Ha ha, but really, this girl is awesome in every sense of the word and I feel so lucky for having gotten to know her. For dinner tonight we made an awesome 'hash a la The Kerby Scramble or 24 Diner 'hash. I definitely miss American breakfast the most, maybe even more than my own brother (just kidding Rumin, kinda…) but luckily it's easy to replicate. If you want to send things my way, breakfast items would be nice. :D

So that pretty much sums up life at post, a lot of sitting around thinking "What the f**k am I doing here, what was I thinking, how can I live here for two years, etc." Somehow, amidst all those thoughts, I manage to thinking of all my loved ones back and home and all the people that I care about so much and look up to and somehow it all seems okay.  I feel incredibly lucky to be here and I am hopeful that the next 23 months will be productive and illuminating. The best thing about this experience so far though, (and again, it's food related, sorry…) is this thing called FanYogo. It's like fro-yo in a bag and it's heaven…especially on a blazing hot African afternoon where you've sweat through every article of clothing including your shoelaces. Other things I like about Togo: Getting called "Yovo/Anasara" by African kids while riding on my bike and then slamming on the breaks in front of them and watching them scatter in terror/laughter; having more time to read books than I've ever had in my entire life (again, I'm open to recommendations.); riding my bike around through the jungle and having numerous "I can't believe I'm in Africa" moments. I think about all my family and friends constantly though, and a phone call from anyone, no matter how long, is a welcome escape into a world that seems oddly distant now. I'm not sure what I miss the most about home (other than breakfast) but if I had to make a list I think my friends and family would occupy the top slots. Also, as I mentioned before, I miss Ikea…like a lot. You don't really realize how hard it is to furnish a home until the idea of a furniture store or Target no longer exists. Lessons are being learned my friends…

In other news, I was officially sworn in as a Peace Corps Volunteer last week in a wonderful ceremony that was broadcast on Togolese television. Coming to post and being stopped by people on the road was a very surreal experience, I'm sure that's what it must be like for vrai celebrities. All the volunteers gave a speech in a local language (written for us by our language instructors of course) and at the end we had what was quite possibly the most fun party I've ever attended. I don't remember the last time I danced for so long without stopping. I also performed the Single Ladies dance by Beyonce (I know my mother must be so proud of all the things I'm doing to change the world – one choreographed dance at a time.) and there is now photographic evidence of it on facebook…some things never change I guess. The 9 weeks of training flew by, and now that I think of it, I can't really believe that I've been here for almost 11 weeks. In those 9 weeks of training, I achieved numerous things:  thanks to the plethora of vaccinations, I'm quite confident I've achieved immunity to everything possible short of biological warfare. I can now confidently converse in French – It's not perfect, but seeing as I started learning in January, I'd say I'm doing pretty well. I am also trained in a variety of community health topics as well as how to be an effective development worker. For the first three months at post, I'm to learn about my community and their needs in order to better serve them. In the meantime, I'm also learning how to navigate Togolese culture, one awkward encounter at a time. In all honesty, the people here are so nice and friendly, it's rather refreshing and humbling to see people with so little willing to give so much. I think if anything, that is one thing I will take away from this experience already – no matter how much you have or think you need in life, the most any of us could ever hope for is the ability to give to another (that's my opinion at least, as ineloquently as I stated it.)

I miss you all and love you very much!! Thanks CG, CP, and AP for sending me letters, your responses are on the way I promise!! Check out the tab on the left for my new mailing address!!

Love love.

P.S. – Being cut off from current events is extremely hard. Newspaper clippings and magazines would be great things to send me and the relative low cost is easily outweighed by the abundance of information, at least in my opinion. Any major advances in technology, culture, and politics are my topics of highest interest.  
339 days ago
And so it goes, day twenty-something in Togo. I'm already loosing

track. Things have just been going so well, I'm happy to report, and I

have quite thoroughly enjoyed my time here in AFRICA!! Sometimes, as

I'm sure you all wonder, I forget that I'm actually here and it isn't

until I find myself staring at some giant tree or an amazing sunset

that I remember, "F**k, I'm in Africa." Yeah, I would say that happens

probably once a week, but it's getting better.I'm currently in week 4 of 9 of my home stay/training. This is the

time in which we are trained on not only how to do our jobs but also

how to communicate. As a culmination of 3 weeks of intensive language

instruction, we gave our first presentations today, in French, in

front of all of our trainers and other supervisors. I was a bit

nervous, never having done a presentation in French let alone in

another country, but I am thrilled at how well it went. I made a point

to mention during my presentation that I have only been studying

French since January, because I am very proud of my progress up to

this point. Other than languages, we have also had some fantastic

sessions about different topics such as weighing babies and

facilitating discussion workshops on a wide range of topics, including

but not limited to: "How to put on a condom," "Working with people

living with AIDS," and my personal favorite "Enriched Porridge, a How

to Guide." Mind you, this is all in French, but as I said before, it's

progressing!! So far everything has felt relatively familiar to me;

it's almost like an extended RA training, which is something that I

grew to really enjoy as many of you might already know. As for the

last 5 weeks of training, one will be spent visiting our posts for the

next two years and the rest will be spent largely in the same manner

as described previously. I'm VERY excited.Speaking of my post, I should probably mention that I've been given a

FANTASTIC post in the central region of Togo in a large city called

Sokode. My work will be primarily with different NGOs like the World

Health Organization and the Red Cross. It is honestly a better

assignment than I could have ever dreamed for, and also (because I'm

sure you all are dying to know) I will probably have electricity AND –

wait for it – running water. I know, crazy talk. It's like I'm not

even in Africa, but I can assure you, I am. So far no scary encounters

with spiders or other creepy crawlies, however, ask anyone in my stage

and I'm sure they'd be the first to tell you that I have no problem

touching bugs…(I'm always somehow being caught chasing butterflies and

other winged-beasts.)Another thing that I want to mention before I finish up this blog post

is how much I've been able to read!! In these past few weeks I've read

close to 5 books!! AND, one of my best friends is going to send me an

eReader filled with more intellectual goodies I'm sure!! I'm so

incredibly happy – I had forgotten how much I enjoyed reading for

pleasure. For a running list of books I've read, please click on the

tab on the left labeled "Reading List."All in all, I'm immensely happy to be here – more than I ever really

imagined honestly. I miss everyone SOOOO much, you have no idea. I

also never imagined how GREAT it would be to talk to a friend on the

phone. It's fantastic, so please please please figure out how to call

me and do it – I'd love to catch up. Even better, write a letter (hey

that rhymes!). It costs about a dollar to send and I promise I will

write back...eventually. As far as things I "need," I can honestly say

that I have everything I need and then some.

(Except maybe some oreos, those would be nice…)Love love love.P.S. – In case you were wondering, I don't have access to regular

internet just yet, my apologies. One of our wonderful trainers is

allowing us to use her internet key. I might look into investing in

one as soon as I look into investing in a computer. Baby steps y'all.

As for now, it's safe to assume that I won't have internet access

again until August at the earliest.
361 days ago
Greetings tout le monde!

I am posting this blog from the Peace Corps headquarters in Lome, Togo. As you may have already read by now, I am officially in Togo as a PST (Peace Corps Trainee)!! Let me just start by saying that I miss you very much, but also that you shouldn't worry too much because I am in very good hands. We are being treated so well here, I am honestly very impressed. Today was the last day of our "pre-pre-service training," and it has been quite fun. It's basically like an RA training session, just in Africa - so I'm pretty cool with it. We learned a lot about how to shit today (Staying Healthy In Togo), literally and figuratively, and we have also been working on getting to know each other better. The two programs in my "Stage" (pronounced: Stah-juh) are the Community Health and AIDS prevention team and the Small Enterprise Development team. Everyone is really great and I feel really lucky to be working with such great people.

A lot of the older PCVs are SUPER cool as well. I totally feel like I've found my "people," which is honestly something I was worried about before coming here. The kinds of people that join the Peace Corps are obviously very diverse, but the common threads are almost always there. Progressive-minded, accepting, and FUN! At our welcome party, someone was playing the new GAGA CD (Shibe, Government Hooker, and Heavy Metal Lover are my favorite) and someone even busted out glow bands at some point - it was awesome.

Tomorrow we are moving in with our host families and I'm very excited to meet them!! I probably won't be able to update my blog for a while while I'm gone, but you can definitely send me packages!! I'll also be getting a phone so that you can call me. I was supposed to get it today, but the guy who was going to sell them to us never showed up (pretty normal practice I assume.) It'll be okay though, I'll get one soon enough and as soon as I figure out a way to send the number out, I will have my PR rep post it. :) *wink*

Love you all beaucoup!! Wish me luck!!
365 days ago
"Dance the night away, Live your life and stay out on the floor..." as J.Lo would say it. I'm about to leave Philadelphia and for the next 24 hours I will be travelling to Africa (Togo, specifically) to live this crazy adventure known as the Peace Corps. The last few hours in the states have been interesting. Saying goodbye to my loved ones at the airports has been one of the hardest things I think I've ever done, but I'm still alive so I'll take that as a sign that everything is going to be okay. All day yesterday I saw little signs/reminders of home and my loved ones; it was as if someone had lit a pathway for me and I was just along for the ride. (HP reference: It's like a had a bit of Felix Felicius and I was following an illuminated pathway, it was cool.) I just keep hearing this little voice in my head that says "Just put one foot in front of another, it'll be okay." Hopefully that same voice doesn't start telling me to kill myself once I'm on the malaria prophylaxis medication...

Everyone here is AWESOME!! Our group is small, 23 people or so, and so far we've just been getting to know each other. This is the first time EVER where I've been the only person from Texas. It's kidna weird and refreshing and I'm strangely proud of being from such a cool state. The rest of the people in my group going to Togo, also known as Peace Corps Trainees (PCTs), are from all over and everyone has a different/interesting background and story. I'm very much looking forward to this exprience with all of them. Yesterday was a very trying day because on top of being an emotional rollercoaster, I was exhausted. I would feel random waves of sadness throughout the day, and by the end of it all I just wanted to sleep. I'm feeling a lot better today and I'm very much looking forward to the flight to Africa!! Anyone who knows me knows how much I like being in airports, and I'm about to visit two really cool ones (CDG/JFK). I'll try and post something soon after I reach post, but I probably won't be within calling range for a week or so.

Anyways, I feel like I'm blabbing on a bit, so I'll end it here. I love you all very much and I feel safe carrying so many stories, relationships, and love with me to Togo. It's the lighest thing I'm packing, but I also feel like it's going to be the most important. (Except my roommate in Philly had this really cool UV water filter, I'm not gonna lie I was kinda jealous...)

Wish me luck with trying to get all my carry-on luggage on to the plane! I've been practing how to say "Please sir, I really need both of these bags because I'm going to Africa!!" in french. :-)
367 days ago
Contrary to the title of this post, I am not going to write about the delicious burgers and In-and-Out. (Okay, but just for the record, I had a double-double animal style with fries and a napoleon milkshake. It was so good!) I am currently sitting at my dining room table surrounded by friends and family, which was the theme for the past week of my life. It is great, I am going to miss everyone so much, I just know it. I also feel very/extremely/"enough to the circle the galaxy twice" loved...I am a very lucky boy.

This process has been long, and stressful, and I've had more than a few meltdowns. I don't think that it all would have been possible without my friends and family. I won't name any names, but you all know who you are. Anyone who knows me will say that I love with all my heart, and it's true, I love to love. As cliché as it sounds, I feel like exist to spread love in the world. That is my goal and mantra for this adventure in Africa. To quote one of my biggest heros, "“Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, when one only remembers to turn on the light.” I am the light, I am love. I will never be without it and I will carry it with me wherever I go.

In-and-out we go, through the different chapters of life, sometimes flipping back to re-read the very best parts, but always looking forward to what comes next. I love you all. Wish me luck!!
374 days ago
I love the letter M, many great words start with it. Off the top of my head I can think of three: Mommy, Macroons, and a certain friend whose name starts with the letter M. All great things - all things that I will miss dearly when I go to Africa in EXACTLY 1 WEEK (well, technically 6 days, 23 hours, and 13 minutes until the entire adventure beings, but who's counting!?)

Today started with an early morning dental appointment, the last for the next two years. Ironically, at the end of the appointment they asked me if I wanted to schedule my next visit (they're usually 6 months apart.) I was a bit surprised because I had spend the last half hour struggling through a mouth full of tools to explain to the hygienist where I was going and what I would be doing with the Peace Corps for the next two years. With complete nonchalance she clicked through the calendar to August 2013 (the month I return from the PC) and said "which days works best for you?" Is it weird that having a dental appointment scheduled for when I return makes me feel a bit better about going? It all goes back to the idea that "two years is not forever and I will be back...eventually."

So far, packing is going better than expected. If it hadn't been for my friend whose name starts with the letter M I probably would have had more melt-downs than I did. It seems that I've forgotten how to shop for myself properly because I was completely overwhelmed at each store I went to. Most people who know me will say that I'm relatively calm and collected, even under pressure - well, not today my friend, not today. In between trying to find suitable luggage and stocking up on pepto-bismol, I realized that in order to maintain sanity throughout this process, I just have to focus on all the things I'm taking with me that don't fit into my luggage. I know that I'm a quick learner and highly adaptable (or so I'd like to think) and that I can be very resourceful if need be. I'm hoping these attributes make up for the fact that I plan on trying to stuff as much underwear as I can into my luggage. We all have our vices, mine is underwear.

Without the support of all my amazing friend and family I would definitely not be where I am today. I am who I am because of them and I will miss them every day that I am gone. I'm doing this to not only enrich my life, but hopefully enrich theirs. Another great lady, Marsha* Gay Hardin (*also with an M) spoke at commencement last year and while I don't remember most of her speech, I do remember her saying: "Go forth and find your joy." I plan on doing just that. Wish me luck y'all!
375 days ago
At this point in my life, I feel like I am very much in an "inbetween." Having just graduated a few days ago, I am now at home preparing for the next book in my life known as "From Texas to Togo, An adventure with the Peace Corps." I'm not exactly sure how it's going to go, but I am hopeful that I will at least survive the experience and maybe even learn a thing or two.

I'm trying really hard not to get stressed out by packing lists and going away parties and making sure all my affairs are in order. I know that I have the support of all of my friends and family (well, most of them...some of my extended family in Iran seem to think I'm literally insane for leaving an American life to live in Africa) and that makes me feel 100 times better. My current worries are whether or not I will be able to limit myself to packing only 80lbs and also if I actually know any french (because I feel like I know nothing...absolutely nothing.)

I am looking forward to a lot of things though, mostly traveling to Africa and meeting all of the other PCVs that will be working with me for the next two years. I wonder if everybody else is feeling the same things I am right now, and I'm guessing most are. If I had to describe it, it's a mixture of nervous anticipation, excitement, nausea, and a bit of hopefulness. I'm hopeful that as one good experience ends, another will begin. I left Austin yesterday, leaving behind many memories and friends. I had some of my best friends with me towards the end of it all, so the transition was a bit smoother, but it was still hard to leave such an amazing city. I honestly don't think that I would have even applied to the Peace Corps had I not lived in Austin and gone to UT. Aside from all of the courses and labs, and as clichéd as this sounds, I really did learn A LOT about myself as an individual. Austin and UT allowed me to be myself without having to censor any part of me and through all the experiences I had I think that I have a much stronger sense of who I am. Going into my next experience, I can only imagine how important a strong sense of "self" will be, and in my opinion, it is the most valuable thing I am taking with me. I may not know a lot about Public Health or the french language, but what I do know is that I am an optimistic and bright individual who is capable of giving and loving and many other wonderful things.

For anyone reading this blog (and I hope some people are) I will do my best to post entries about my life and feelings while abroad as often as possible. I can't make any guarantees, and I will admit that I have an awful track record with writing blogs, but I think that once life starts happening, I will have more to say. I think the reason I have failed to write about my life in the past is that I didn't view many of my experiences as "things to chronicle to remember forever" but rather "experiences that help shape my own identity," and admittedly, the meaning of the latter is much harder to put into words.

Here goes nothing!!

Love,

ARO
397 days ago
Warning: Contains explicit language.

Instead of studying for my last Cell Biology midterm (which I need to pass in order to graduate, ironically) I'm struck with the fact that in exactly 5 weeks I will be in Africa. Needless to say I've been distracted by the internet, reading blog after blog after packing list from all of the prospective PCVs leaving this summer. Some people have already packed and some are already writing beautifully eloquent blog posts about their feelings and expectations for this experience. So far, I have packed absolutely nothing and I'm having serious doubts about my abilities to even express myself coherently under pressure. "Why do you think this Ryan, you must have been able to do something right or else you wouldn't have been selected to join the PC!?" It was a fluke, trust me! I'm going to arrive in Africa and everyone will realize that I barely speak french and that I'm sorely incapable of living with spiders and snakes and that all I really good at is making origami cranes.

Yesterday, I was speaking with a dear friend about what it would be like if we could record every conscious thought and so this is my attempt at that experiment starting with the thought "30 days to go (ha ha, to go - Togo, get it. Shit, I haven't even started yet...)

Well, I wonder what it will be like to finally get to philly and meet all the other PCVs going to Togo. I'm sure they're all probably thinking the same thing I am which is "holy fucking hell, I'm going to be living in Africa, wtf." That is a comforting thought. You know what else is comforting, peanut butter, I need to make sure I buy a lot before I go. Gosh, there is so much that I have to do before I leave, I can't even start thinking about it. What if I just show up in Philadeliphia with nothing but a backpack, I wonder what the other people would think of me they'd probably just laugh and say how screwed I was (in french) and then I would probably barf in their face and realize that I'm going to be living in fucking africa where there are snakes and spiders and HOLY SHIT I'M GOING TO AFRICA, what am I doing, why am I agreeing to this!!?? I can barely speak french beyond describing what kind of movie I like to watch. people die in africa, I can't die before I visit new york and there is so much I want to eat before I die, how sad is it that all I want to do is eat, it is my comfort!

So yes, to sum it all up in all of it's ungrammatical glory, I am a melodramatic fatty who is afraid of spiders and apparently also afraid of packing. Well, we'll see what happens.

At the end of the day, I try and focus on a few simple thoughts:

- Two years is not forever. And if you die at least you'll have lived.

- There are SO many people who love you and know that you will succeed. You can rely on them and they will always be there for you even if you fail at this.

- Wanting to come back home won't be considered failure, not giving this experience a chance though, would be.

- You're bright, and capable, and SMART, and you have what it takes even if you don't know where punctuation goes some of the time! (Repeat x3 daily.)

Cross your fingers for me y'all.

Love,

ARO
400 days ago
Every morning, even before I open my eyes, I am thinking about what the next 27 months of my life are going to look like in Africa. Some of you may know (and by some I mean no one because I have yet to publicize this blog's existence...) that I have accepted an invitation to join the Peace Corps as a Community/Public Health Advisor in Togo. My date of departure is rapidly approaching and the next month before I leave will probably be the most hectic month of my life. Today, I realized that in less than two weeks after I walk across the stage at graduation, I will be flying across the world to a new life in Africa. (That' is CRAZY!!)

Amidst all of my final midterms and exams and everything else I need to do school-wise before I leave, I literally think about the Peace Corps ALL THE DAMN TIME! Not an hour goes by in which I don't think about what my life will be like, who I will meet, what I will eat - yes, all of these questions cycle in an endless loop. I think what I'm looking forward to the most right now is meeting people that are going to be with me during training. Some of you all may know, I find "training events" to be highly enjoyable, and from what I gather from other peoples' blogs, the PC training is 10 weeks of FUN covering a multitude of topics ranging from "how to poo in a latrine" to filtering water and speaking french. (Luckily I have the latrine thing down. Thank you family vacations to Iran!)

All of my dreams are slowly becoming about the Peace Corps as well. I can only imagine what will happen when I'm on the malaria prophylaxis - which some say induces vivid dreams. That's a silver lining in my opinion.
1157 days ago
I'm starting my application to join the Peace Corps today...

Thought about it a lot and it seems like the perfect fit for me. I always seem to do well in these sorts of capacities.

Next step, convince the parents that I won't die while abroad...I think that's going to be the hardest part of the application honestly.
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